This study of mysticism in Hebrew Gematria is dedicated in the loving memory of Mr. Donald Wayne Belk and Mr. Gary Lee Belk, my older brothers, may they rest in peace.
Every year leading up to Yom Kippur I have felt forgiveness. And during Yom Kippur I have fasted and prayed fervently. When Yom Kippur was concluded I felt squeaky clean. I felt like a load was lifted from off my chest, from off my back. I felt very forgiven. It is a wonderful feeling to exit Yom Kippur feeling forgiven by the Eternal Judge.
However not everyone experiences the feelings of forgiveness. Some enter Yom Kippur feeling horrible and some exit feeling disappointed. It is to these feelings that we speak. Some of us have done some very bad things this past year.... these past years... We know we don’t deserve to be forgiven. Some of us have feelings of overwhelming guilt. We cannot bear our guilt because it is so overwhelming. Then there is the person who has done bad things who should feel enormous guilt, yet that person acts as if nothing bothers him / her. So throughout the synagogue... city... country... world... universe we have all these feelings colliding. We have the person who is unworthy and doesn’t care. We have the person who feels hopelessly unworthy. That person feels like, ‘What is the point to praying? I can never be forgiven..’ We have the person who acts so clean but is so very filthy. Then we have people like me, an educated religious leader who is short on patience, who lacks sufficient kindness all the time, who squeezes 27 hours out of 24, who says and does unkind things, who hurts others, who fails to observe Torah...
Dear ones, this is not a time to act like the day of atonement was commanded for someone else. This is why the Torah uses the words Yom Ha Kee Pu Reem. See Leviticus 23:27. The Gematria is 411 which is the same for Toh Hu {without form}. In the beginning the world was Toh Hu. The world was without form. G-d gave this world form. That form is found in the 613 Mitzvos of Torah for the Jew and the 7 Noaich Commandments for the Spiritualists. I would like to point out that the word Toh Hu is directly tied to Yom Ha Kee Pu Reem by another number besides Gematria. That number is ten. Yom Kippur is observed on the tenth day of the seventh month. Toh Hu is the tenth word of Torah. What does this tell us? It tells us that a day of atonement is necessary for those of us that are without form. Some of us have less form than others. Toh Hu describes each of us that fails to observe G-d’s commandments.
Yom Ha Kee Pu Reem {The Day Of Many Atonements}
411 = Mem 40 Yud 10 Reish 200 Pey 80 Chof 20 Hey 5 Mem 40 Vav 6 Yud 10
Toh Hu {Without form}
411 = Vav 6 Hey 5 Sav 400
The remedy for our being without form is Yom Ha Kee Pu Reem, the day of atonements... the day with many atonements. The Yud and the mem are added to Kee Pur. In so doing that expands the intent to express this day as the day of many atonements. Having this in mind is important to realize that one of our Creator’s attributes is being merciful. The Torah uses the word Rah Chum {merciful} representing many mercies. So regardless of how we feel there are two things to remember. First G-d is merciful. Second G-d has prepared a way for those of us that have failed to observe the Torah. When we return to the observant life our being takes on form. Our being takes on meaning. Our being takes on boundaries. We are no longer Toh Hu {without form}. Third this applies to all who have failed. This applies to all that are without form. No matter how great our lack of form, our failure, the Torah can correct that through the day of atonement. Thank G-d for Yom Kippur!
It is at this place that I would like to point something out to Spiritualists that desire to take on additional Mitzvos beyond what is required. After you take on a particular mitzvah for three times, it is as if you have taken a vow to continue observing that mitzvah. So if you later decide to stop observing that mitzvah which you originally chose to observe, you are still accountable. Your failing to observe that mitzvah will be considered Toh Hu. So it is wise to not take on more than you can observe.
Li Shaw Naw - Toh Vaw - Tee Caw Say Voo
“For a Good Year, May you be inscribed [in the Book of Life],”